4:32 a.m. - 2004-12-12
how could I let you go
Okay
I have come to the conclusion that there's no hope for the males--especially me meeting someone who doesn't just want ass. Especially at college.

We went out tonight... after deciding to stay in for the night since we have to prepare for finals, so at one thirty the monaca guys call us to hang out because they were at some kids apartment. So me and ash get there and it's cool, you know, with just the monaca kids. Then the guys who own the apartment come back--and wow, they were just winners let me tell you. . . They just made me want to shoot myself in the head because I dont know what happened to their life. They could've went to college for eight years by now and became doctors but instead their coaching high school football/basketball, getting drunk every weekend, and "fucking bitches"

Oh man. . . If this is what I'm in for--I think I'm going to pass. I dont care if you're some dork, you can call me, because I'm not up for these guys who just want to "fuck bitches"

Anyways, this is the second night in a row where I didn't get into the house til four in the morning. I'm getting up again to start studying--I mean I'm going to fail anyways, I figure I should at least make some sort of effort.

This week has been so stressful--I've had a million other things on my mind that I can't really discuss. . . I should tell someone, but there's reason I'm not, just more undue stress than I need...

haha, I dont know where anything is headed anymore--and I'm suprisingly okay with that

-Amber

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