12:29 a.m. - 2004-02-06
It's to dying in another's arms and why i had to try it
I'm going home tomorrow, at seven a.m., but. . . it's still home!!! :) Home = belle + mommy + daddy + lunch with my maria :)!! Im so excited! I finished my molecular bio lab results tonight, finally. I went to bio lab hours to get help from one of the instructors and let me tell you, it is the last time I ever get help from ANYONE on this campus. I tried to get help from my chemistry TA on wednesday and he was telling me how i didn't know how to use a calculator and made me feel like a complete idiot. Then today Vicki made me feel like an idiot too. I kept on trying to explain what I didn't understand, and I don't know. . . I hate asking help from people in the first place, and then they just make me never want to do it again. The past two times I wanted to cry. . . :( I think I'm over emotional this week though.

I really should be sleeping right now--I just can't bring myself to walk over to the bed. Plus I'm listening to Konstantine which has been revived as my favorite song of the moment. I turned in my Lambda Sigma Application in tonight. I don't think I'm going to get asked back for an interview. I don't think that my personal representation made the list. I thought it was unique. . . But I bet they were looking for something REALLY good. And that's just not me. Im half assed at everything. I try, it just always looks like I haven't put any effort in--especially when I get back my chemistry grades...

I heart home :)

-Amber

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