11:39 p.m. - 2003-07-09
good morning beautiful
'You look so peaceful sleeping, you don't know that I'm leaving, but I'm gone. I did my best to beat 'em, but in my head the deamons said 'move on'. You wake up you're going to curse my name. As some time goes by I hope and pray. When you think of me, remember the way that I used to be. Remember the times I held you tenderly. Remember the way that I love you. I think about the night I met you, I swore I'd never forget you. Well I won't. I think about the way you live and breathe inside my dreams forever. You'll be better when I'm gone. Cause I know you're going to fall in love again. I'm sorry this is how it has to end. But when you think of me...'

That song. It makes me sad.

I was thinking today about friendships and losing them and making them and how many people I'll encounter over my life and those who have changed me. I mean, we don't like to remember those painful relationships where in the end you cried and cried. But you know that the person was there. You know that you really did once care for them. Even though they called you bad names or just cut you out of their life forever, you can't help but wonder once in awhile how they are. If they're okay now. And that's what I think about once in awhile. So yes, Nate if you read this. i do wonder how you're doing. Maybe I shouldn't. But I do.

-Amber

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